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Monday, May 27, 2019

#KickAssBy50

Photo by David Talley on Unsplash
Back in July 2017, Melanie and I took our boys to Seattle.  They had never been there, and one of Melanie’s brothers had moved to the area several years earlier when he took a job with Microsoft.  We stayed with his family in the quaint and pleasant suburb of Duvall.  It was a really great experience.  Something about the Pacific Northwest speaks to my soul.  I fell in love with it within minutes—literally—of exiting SeaTac airport on my first visit back in 1992.  As soon as I felt the crisp Washington air and beheld the gray skies and abundance of lush green trees, I was absolutely smitten.  Fortunately, I’ve been able to visit this particular corner of the world many times now.  Melanie and I even honeymooned in Seattle and British Columbia.  Without exaggeration, I often feel “homesick” for the place.  Of the very few items on my bucket list, living in the Pacific Northwest may just be at the top.

If you’re like me, being on vacation—especially somewhere that you really love—naturally leads to an examination of your life.  Freed from the burdens of everyday life—from the day-to-day responsibilities, obligations, and “have to’s”—you have an opportunity to connect with your true self, to take inventory of your hopes, dreams, and ambitions, and to reassess your life trajectory.  I have always found myself in a rather self-reflective state when visiting the PNW.  It has always left me inspired.  Of course, the weeds of normal life grow at an alarmingly fast rate; they often choke one’s motivation within a day or two of returning home.  But thanks to a little catchphrase, my 2017 visit to Seattle has stuck with me a little better than most.

“Kick ass by 50.”  That’s my goal.  And it’s a holistic goal.  By the time I am 50 years old, I want to be living the best life I’ve ever lived.  It’s not just about me as a person.  Yes, I hope to be in very good physical health, even if that is necessarily followed by an asterisk that notes “some restrictions apply.”  Yes, I hope to have made tremendous advancements as a musician.  Yes, I hope to have read a lot of great books and to have seen a lot of amazing movies.  But it goes beyond that.  I want to kick ass at 50, but I also want my life to kick ass when I’m 50.  Do you see the difference?  To the maximum degree possible, I want every moment of my waking hours to feel like a manifestation of me.  This means I need to be in a career that feels like me.  It’s not enough to have a secure job that sufficiently pays the bills.  This means the way I spend my free time needs to feel like an investment in and/or an expression of the me that I like the most.  At the risk of sounding like a whiny, entitled, self-absorbed teenager—although I’m probably ripe for the type of midlife crisis that would lend to such attitudes—I want my home, my clothes, my car, and everything else to feel like a manifestation of me.

Let me be clear.  I’m not talking about being a selfish prick.  I’m not talking about being immature or irresponsible.  I’m not talking about being a self-centered asshole who doesn’t care how my actions impact the people and the world around me.  If you know me, you know those sorts of attitudes don’t describe me at all.  (Well, mostly.)  What I’m talking about is something that I believe any rational and reasonably intelligent person would agree with and endorse, and something that we probably all seek.  I even believe there is a moral obligation to pursue the type of life I mean.  (More on that in a future post.)  I have felt all too cognizant of the fact that life is fleeting.  Because of that, I can get pretty depressed when I realize just how rarely I see the me that I absolutely love and adore.  Yes, there is a me that I think is pretty darn awesome.  And unique.  And I believe everyone has that inside them.  Which is what makes it so incredibly tragic if those beautiful, unique, wonderful individuals are mostly kept in a box and rarely see the light of day.  No offense to anyone who believes in reincarnation, but none of us is coming around again.  This is it.  If the best you—by which I mean the real you—gets to come out and play only once in a blue moon—that is, if the one person whose life you’ve been most intimately entrusted with—yourself—only gets to make an occasional guest appearance in this world … well, that’s just a tragedy beyond anything else I can possibly imagine.

I consider myself fortunate that my life has been moving steadily in the “kick ass” direction since moving back to Utah in 2014.  There’s still plenty of work to do, which is probably why I chose “kick ass by 50” rather than “kick ass by 45” or what would’ve been the extremely ambitious goal of “kick ass by 39.”  I’m now 40, a little bit more kick ass than I was at 39 but nowhere near the kick ass I’ll be at 50.  That said, I hope to make great kick ass strides every year between now and then.  I really believe I will, and that’s rather exciting.  Oh, and lest there be any confusion, I don’t plan to retire from kick-assery at 50.  I’ll keep going with it.  Perhaps I’ll set a new goal at that time.  Bad ass motherfucker by 80 or some such.  We’ll see.

Monday, August 03, 2015

Coming Home

We left Nauvoo on the evening of Friday, July 31st. No surprise, we didn’t hit the road quite as early as we’d hoped, so we didn’t reach our hotel until close to 1 AM. It didn’t help that we got a bit lost for a short while. I think we inadvertently skipped one of the steps on our Google Maps directions, the kind of thing people who are hip enough to have a GPS system would never do. Fortunately, we got lost only once we were in the vicinity of our hotel. Melanie made a quick call to her brother, Tom, and had him look up directions based on where we were. We were only 10 minutes away from the hotel, but we couldn’t have found it without Tom. Thanks, Tom! On the plus side, getting lost gave us an opportunity to explore Omaha (and its surrounding areas, like Council Bluffs, IA). Excluding trips to the beach and public pools, I don’t think I’ve ever seen so many shirtless men in such a short period of time. As I noted in a Facebook status update, being a man and wearing a shirt does not seem to be a popular combination in Omaha. And it wasn’t just the cool dudes hanging out in front of the gas stations after midnight. In the morning, we saw several men walking around without shirts. Classy!

We spent our first night at the Sleep Inn in what is technically Carter Lake, IA. We had one of the cutest hotel rooms I’ve ever seen. The room was T-shaped, with a bed in each wing of the top of the “T” and the bathroom and desk being situated in the “stem” of the “T.” (Each bed had its own TV, too.) That might not sound particularly cute, but the coloring and everything added to it. (See the photo below, which I am politely lifting from Kayak.com.) The beds were super comfortable, with delightfully squishy and plush pillows. We slept great. That’s what we liked about the hotel. Other aspects of the hotel were much sketchier. With the exception of the employee who checked us in, every member of the staff we encountered looked like a heroin addict who had just been released from prison. I wouldn’t have felt safe leaving my personal belongings in my room, if I may be so judgmental as to say so. The complimentary breakfast was also a joke, the worst I’ve ever seen. We went down to breakfast a good 35 minutes before it was supposed to end, and there was next to nothing available to eat. I’m not exaggerating when I say there was literally one slice of white bread, one English muffin, two small donuts, a few apples, and almost anything you’d get out of a spout was about to run dry. Filling up a cup with waffle batter to pour into the waffle iron, I wasn’t sure I’d get enough batter to make a waffle. When I did get a waffle, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to get enough syrup out of the syrup thing. Melanie and I had to share a spoon for our yogurts because there weren’t enough spoons. The kids finished off the little bit of cereal that remained, and I wasn’t sure we’d get enough milk out of the carafe. It was quite disappointing. (In contrast, our next hotel refilled breakfast items even when there was literally only four minutes remaining of breakfast time. That’s how you do it, folks!)

This doesn't match the layout of our room, but decoratively, it is the exact same style.  Thanks, Kayak.com!


Upon leaving the hotel on the morning of Saturday, August 1st, we hit our final church history site of the summer: the Kanesville Tabernacle. I admit, I hadn’t heard of Kanesville until a couple of months ago, but the early Latter Day Saints spent more time in Kanesville than they did nearby Winter Quarters. The Kanesville Tabernacle (the original, which was about a mile away from the visitor’s center and reconstructed tabernacle today) is where Brigham Young was sustained as church president. Or, rather, it’s where he was sustained by approximately 1,000 church members and some members of the Quorum of the Twelve. My understanding is that the LDS Church is interpreting this moment in history as the moment when Brigham Young becomes President of the LDS Church. There are some glitches in that interpretation, however, as I understand it—though I admit, I’m not sure how well I understand it. One problem with trying to wrap your mind around some of this is that the LDS Church can be intentionally vague about things. I promise I don’t say that to be negative, it’s just true. At the Kanesville Tabernacle, for instance, there are signs that talk about “the Twelve” and how they “unanimously” sustained Brigham Young. But based on details you read on other signs at the same historic site, it’s clear that it wasn’t the entire “Twelve” in attendance. So, they (purposely, I believe) give the impression that all twelve apostles were in attendance and agreed about Brigham Young becoming president, but that isn’t really the case. In fact, Lyman Wight opposed Brigham Young and ended up with his own faction. So, if you just read the signs at the historic sites and try to understand things based on what is strongly implied (and darn near explicitly said) on those signs, you get an inaccurate picture. Anyway, it’s strange to me to think that Brigham Young truly became the president just in virtue of being sustained by a small fraction of church members. That doesn’t strike me as legitimate. But the bigger issue in my mind is that I am unaware of Brigham Young ever being ordained as president. Being sustained is one thing, but ordination is another. I can’t find any information about Brigham being ordained as president. I’ve heard some people claim that he never was, but I don’t know. I only know that I can’t find anything about it, and you’d think the LDS Church would promote it like crazy if they knew the when and where of such an ordination. If Brigham wasn’t ordained president, that’s a very significant thing. If you hold to the LDS view on how priesthood succession and authority works—with ordination by the laying on of hands being so central to the rest—a lack of ordination could potentially undermine Brigham’s entire presidency. It might even have a domino effect that would delegitimize subsequent presidents of the LDS Church, including any priesthood ordinances performed during their tenure, since those would require the sealing power that is understood to be invested only in the president of the church. I myself don’t base my religious beliefs on this type of legalism, but I am fascinated by these matters precisely because if you take the LDS view of things seriously, it often ends up being problematic for the LDS Church in some way. That fascinates me. (If you’re wondering, Joseph Smith III was not only blessed by his father to be his successor, but he was both sustained and ordained as church president. That gives Joseph III’s claims to presidency much greater legitimacy, if you want to take the legalistic view of church authority seriously.)

Creegan poses in front of a statue of a man bidding his wife and daughter goodbye because Brigham Young has claimed them as wives.  (Just kidding!)


I think Mormons sometimes view the RLDS Church (known today as Community of Christ) as clearly not a true continuation of the original church since they were and admit to being "reorganized."  But the LDS Church did the same thing.  The "reorganization" was of the first presidency, and that's exactly what happened with Brigham Young in 1847, as the LDS Church readily admits with this here plaque.

Brigham Young, Heber C. Kimball, and Willard Richards look over a list of young women as they decide who gets whom for a plural wife.  (Just kidding!)


A quote from a revelation received by Brigham Young, now included in LDS D&C 136.  I'm not being snarky when I say I find this verse rather poignant, given that it turns out to be so very applicable to Brigham Young himself.

An artistic rendering of Brigham Young being sustained as president by eight of the twelve apostles (including Brigham himself).

Note those who were absent.  What was Lyman Wight doing in Texas?  Oh yes, opposing Brigham Young and leading his own faction!  D'oh!
 
Brigham Young gears up to sing "Girl, You'll Be a Woman Soon" at the Kanesville Karaoke Club.  (Just kidding!)


The nice thing about the Kanesville Tabernacle is that it was the only LDS-owned historic site we visited this year where the onsite missionaries weren’t immediately bearing their testimonies to us. They actually stuck to the history. I don’t recall a single hint of testimony-bearing during our entire visit. It was kind of nice, if I may say so.

After leaving the Kanesville Tabernacle, we started our daylong drive to Laramie, WY. I don’t think there’s anything interesting to say about the drive. Western Nebraska and Wyoming are ugly in comparison to where we had been, and that made the drive somewhat dull. Melanie and I listened to a fair amount of podcasts; the boys played on their electronic devices. The latter are a true lifesaver. There was not a single complaint about the many hours we spent in the car on the way back to Utah. Amazing. We arrived in Laramie at about 8:30 PM local time, thanks to changing time zones. As it turned out, we had booked a room at the exact same hotel that we had stayed in on our way to Utah after moving out of our Tallahassee, Florida apartment last summer. Even more coincidental, we were put in the very same hotel room. Yes, I am certain—it was in the back corner of the second floor, which made it easy to remember. After getting checked in, we went swimming until 10 PM, then let history repeat itself once more by heading to Chili’s for a late-night dinner, just as we had done approximately 13 months earlier. For the third time in as many days, I didn’t get to eat what I had planned on, which was a bummer. Country fried steak is no longer on the Chili’s menu, and that was always one of my favorite Chili’s items. With that being gone the ground peppercorn burger having been omitted long ago, I now have zero inclination to return to Chili’s. Not that my food was bad. I tried to make up for my bad experience at Outback a couple of weeks earlier by ordering a ribeye, cooked medium. Like Outback, Chili’s overcooked the steak, but not nearly to the degree that Outback had. At least the steak at Chili’s was juicy rather than dry. The seasoning left something to be desired, but I quite enjoyed my “skillet mashed potatoes,” which had a thick coating of melted cheese on top. Cilantro was also placed on top, which seemed different for mashed potatoes, but I love cilantro, so it was a win. Beegy fell asleep before his dinner ever arrived. Eddie and Peter enjoyed their food, and Melanie thought her pork carnitas tacos were exceptionally good. Overall, it was a successful visit.

Never seen one of these before.  Melanie snapped this photo for us as we entered the freeway in Omaha and took toward Wyoming.

My ribeye.  Skillet mashed potatoes are in back.  See the cheesy glaze?  Yum!




The drive from Laramie, WY to our home in Utah felt slow and tedious, as the last day of driving so often does. It wasn’t a purely mental thing, either. There was lots of road construction, by which I mean lots of highway that was reduced to one lane and situated between bright orange traffic cones and barrels. I didn’t see any actual construction going on, but it was a Sunday. In some states, that matters. (It wouldn’t have in Florida.) This means we kept getting slowed down, sometimes to stop-and-go speeds, often behind large semis. It wasn’t any fun. It was fun that our boys started to recognize things and point them out. Beegy would get especially excited about things he remembered. And I’m not talking about things around the SLC area. I’m talking even out by Green River, Wyoming. He’d recognize a particular landscape or whatever. We got home around 6:30 PM. The boys were excited to revisit Grandma and Grandpa’s trampoline. Melanie and I were just excited to be done. We did take a quick tour of the home improvements that have been made during our time away: Melanie’s parents painted their bedroom light purple (which looks great with their gray bedding) and have a new washer and dryer. Despite being exhausted, I stayed up until 4 AM. It makes no sense, but it’s what happened.

And that’s that. We’re here. It’s over. Nauvoo is a memory. How fleeting it was. I do have some apprehension about being here. I would not be the least bit surprised if I go through a period of depression sometime in the very near future, having gone from having a daily purpose in life to again having very little direction or structure. It’s okay. I’m prepared for it, and that will help. I’m excited to partake of the benefits that Utah has to offer, such as an event tonight at the SLC Library with John Hamer. As a reminder, John Hamer features significantly into Melanie’s and my journey into Community of Christ. It was his lecture at the SLC Library last summer that inspired us to attend an actual worship service at Community of Christ. Tonight’s event, titled “Ever Diverging Expressions of the Latter Day Saint Restoration,” should be epic (as my kids would say). I shall return and report.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Independence Trip, Part 2

Correction: In my previous entry, I said I didn’t know why part of a revelation on tithing was posted on a monument at the Far West, Missouri historic site for the LDS Church. I had originally wondered if the revelation would have been received at Far West, but I dismissed the idea because, as I remembered it, Joseph Smith never actually lived in Missouri. Turns out my initial assumption was correct and I was wrong to dismiss it. Despite Joseph’s never officially living in Far West, he did spend some time there and received some revelations there. My bad.

Another correction: I said in my previous post that a “partially-standing” portion of the original Liberty Jail is housed in the LDS visitor’s center at Liberty, Missouri. The implication was that some of the original Liberty Jail remained intact and has remained in its original state until today. However, I believe that is incorrect. They did indeed use some of the original Liberty Jail materials to recreate a portion of the Liberty Jail, but as I now understand it, what is in the visitor’s center is a reconstruction. Thanks to Melanie for clarifying that.

Wednesday, July 22nd was a full day of sightseeing in Independence, Missouri. After eating our hotel’s complimentary breakfast and getting checked out, we took to the Community of Christ Independence Temple. I had driven past the temple in the 90s, when it would have been brand new. I remember thinking it looked like something out of the Wizard of Oz. I wasn’t impressed, but good Mormons rarely are impressed by anything that other religions do, especially religions as blatantly apostate as what was then called the Reorganized Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Returning to Independence some 20 years later, as a recent convert to Community of Christ, I was so excited to enter the temple. The unique spiral roof of the temple was now a symbol that held great and beautiful meaning to me, rather than just appearing odd. I was elated to be there, with my entire family in tow, no less. The significance of being able to enter the temple as a family, no one excluded, was not lost on Melanie and me. Having my children with me made it all the more holy and divine, not less so.




Beating Peter into a plowshare.  I love the sense of humor on this kid.




When I approached the main desk and explained a little bit about who I am—one of the interns in Nauvoo, here with my family, recent convert, etc.—I quickly realized that they had been expecting us. My boss must have called them and let them know I was coming. We were treated to a lovely tour of not only the temple, but the large auditorium across the street that is something like the LDS tabernacle. One thing I really appreciated about the temple was the diverse aesthetics. Lots of different art is used, from sculptures to paintings to stained glass to a zen garden atrium. Even when it comes to the different sculptures or paintings, the styles vary. I think this is really neat. It naturally promotes reflection as things resonate with you in different ways and for different reasons. One thing I always loved about the LDS temple is that, despite being surrounded by other temple patrons, your time feels very personal. You are very much in your own head, meditating, praying, having your own thoughts, etc. The Community of Christ temple is conducive to that, and perhaps more so since there isn’t a particular narrative that is presented within a strict time frame. Things needn’t be done in any particular order, although “The Worshiper’s Path” is a symbolic spiritual journey that has a more precise flow to it. I found The Worshiper’s Path quite neat, although I’d like someday to return and walk the path while not on a tour. That would make it more meaningful, I think. To tell you a little bit about The Worshiper’s Path, you begin by entering through an archway comprised of stenciled glass. The images on the glass are of trees (and a few animals) and are meant to symbolize one’s entrance into the sacred grove, which itself is symbolic of the beginning of a spiritual journey.

The atrium of the temple, zen garden style.

The entryway to The Worshiper's Path.


As you walk The Worshiper’s Path, you are gradually working your way, in an ascending spiral, to the center of the temple. You pass various pieces of art as you go, reminding you of such things as the Parable of the Prodigal Son, the Atonement, etc. There is a great deal of symbolism here, some of which our tour guide pointed out and some of which I recognized myself. As you walk the path, you are ascending. You can’t see too far ahead at any given time, but it gets progressively brighter. The walls are made of rough granite. The journey takes you inward, until you reach the center of the temple—perhaps the center of your own soul. There is illumination here—the sanctuary is the brightest room you enter—but it is also here that one visually encounters the interior of the spiral ceiling and sees that the journey toward Heaven has only just begun. As you pass out of the sanctuary, you begin your trek back into the world. Explicit images of Christ become more prominent, and a sign above one of the sets of doors reminds you that “the fields ... are white already to harvest.” Leaving the building, you may notice that the granite walls are now a little more polished, a little smoother. They are not altogether smooth, but some refinement has occurred. You exit the temple onto a map of the world, with flags from nations all over the planet flying high above you. What will you take into that world after the spiritual journey you’ve just had?

This piece represents the Parable of the Prodigal Son.

Walking the Worshiper's Path, one must pass through the shadow of the cross.

The Tree of Life.

I really, really liked this display and wish I had gotten a better photo of it.  Just below these words is a fountain with water continuously pouring over the edge into a lower basin that then recycles the water.  But the water is so still and calm, even as it overflows, that you can hardly tell it's there unless you dip your hands into it.

An interior view of the spiral roof of the temple.

The sanctuary marks the center of the temple.  It is directly above this that one can see into the spiral.





Melanie poses next to an image of Christ she found particularly powerful.  I quite like it myself.

Melanie, Eddie, and Creegan pose alongside the row of flags outside the temple just before entering.

After walking The Worshiper’s Path, we went through the underground tunnel to the Community of Christ Auditorium across the street. We then returned to the temple, where Melanie and I took the kids into the combination museum / gift shop. The museum houses some interesting artifacts, such as an original window from the Kirtland Temple and the original jailhouse door from Liberty Jail. We let the boys each choose a souvenir from the gift shop. Eddie and Creegan bought some $5 fancy-looking gold pens that have turned out to be junk, it seems. Peter bought a little stuffed lion and lamb, taken from the Community of Christ seal featuring a child with a lion and a lamb, a reference to Isaiah 11 in which Isaiah describes “the peaceable kingdom.”  I suggested naming the lion and lamb Peace and Quiet, respectively. So far, Peter has kept those names. As for Melanie and me, we each individually fell in love with the same decoration, a glass cube with a laser-cut image of the temple in the center of it. When I said that’s what I wanted to buy, she was excited because she had wanted it as well. That’s our souvenir from the temple.  After finishing up in the gift shop, it was perfect timing to make it to the daily Prayer for Peace, which is held in the sanctuary of the temple at 1 PM local time, 365 days a year.  Each day a different country is supported through prayer.  It’s a beautiful thing.

The Community of Christ Auditorium as seen from the temple.

The Auditorium as seen from the Stone Church (see below).

Peace and Quiet.  Or, in this case, Quiet and Peace.


By this point, I was starving. It was nearing 2 PM. My boss in Nauvoo had recommended we eat at a place called Dave’s Bakery & Deli, which was only a few blocks from the temple. I got a turkey club and added both avocado and cucumber to it. It came on some good, toasty bread. It really was quite yummy. Melanie got a veggie sandwich that she quite enjoyed, and the kids got chicken fingers (Eddie and Creegan) and a cheeseburger (Peter). We went all out and got dessert, which was ice cream for the kids, a couple of chocolate-dipped coconut cookies for Melanie, and a cream cheese danish for me. Mine wasn’t bad, but the cheese danishes at the Casey’s gas station are way better. Go figure.






You can see the temple between the trees in the background.  As you can tell, our lunch spot was very nearby.


After lunch, I wanted to hit a few of the tourist destinations surrounding the Independence Temple. Our first stop was what’s called simply the Stone Church. It’s a very old RLDS / Community of Christ church located kitty-corner to the temple. Joseph III would have attended church there, as well as countless others. The inside looks rather traditional for an old church, but the outside is very cool. In the 1970s (or thereabouts), some stained glass windows were replaced. The windows now on the building include scenes of significance to the Restoration tradition, which was kind of cool to see in stained-glass form. The on-site pastor was very gracious in letting Melanie, the kids, and me wander around the building. The kids went a little manic, which added some stress to our visit, but overall, it was good.








After leaving the Stone Church, we crossed the road to the Church of Christ (Temple Lot). This branch of the Restoration movement is sometimes called the Hedrickite church, so-called because its origins (after Joseph Smith) lie in a man named Granville Hedrick. During my time here in Nauvoo, I have regularly hung around a man named Dave who was raised Hedrickite. He had informed me that the Hedrickites are very traditional. Wendy, one of my co-workers here in Nauvoo, said she was chewed out by one of the Hedrickite apostles and told by that same apostle that she is going to burn in Hell once he learned that she holds a priesthood office in Community of Christ. (Being Community of Christ wasn’t the problem so much as her being a woman who claims to hold the priesthood.) All things considered, Melanie and I were treated quite cordially by the man at their visitor’s center, which is really just a room with some postcards and pamphlets located in the basement of their church. The Hedrickites reject the notion of having a president of the church and instead follow what they believe is the Biblical precedence of being led by twelve apostles. They reject temple rites, such as baptism for the dead and eternal marriage. Their official canon consists only of the Bible and the Book of Mormon, which are to be the measure of all doctrinal matters. The Book of Commandments (which would later become the Doctrine and Covenants in the LDS and Community of Christ traditions) is used sparingly and is not considered authoritative. The Hedrickites do believe in continuing revelation and prophecy, but anyone can theoretically prophesy and it doesn’t make that person the prophet in any ultimate sense. There is no single leader. There are no high priests in the Hedrickite church, because Jesus was and is the final high priest (a common understanding in Christianity, by the way, and I think a rather fair interpretation of what the Bible actually says).

The Stone Church (left) and the Hedrickite church (right) as seen from the Community of Christ Auditorium.  The grassy area in front of the Hedrickite church was designated by Joseph Smith as the site of a future, Millenium-era temple.  Hence, the official name of the Hedrickite church: Church of Christ (Temple Lot).

The Church of Christ (Temple Lot) from a slightly different angle.  

The Hedrickite church as seen from the opposite side.  Just inside those doors is the Church of Christ (Temple Lot) visitor's center.


The guy at the Hedrickite church kept going on and on about things and was a bit hard to break away from. He wasn’t being pushy or seeking to convert us, he just had a lot of stories to share. When we finally did break away, I wanted to visit the LDS visitor’s center. My boss here in Nauvoo had led me to believe that the LDS Church actually has some pretty good displays in the downstairs of their visitor’s center. Melanie had no interest, so I dropped her and the kids off at the CofC Auditorium so they could go to the Children’s Peace Pavilion, a kind of children’s museum with lots of interactive displays located within the Auditorium itself. I then went to the LDS visitor’s center on my own. When I walked in, I was immediately greeted by a sister missionary who told me everything the visitor’s center had to offer. She said that the downstairs had more of the “history stuff.” She then asked if I knew what I wanted to do there. I said the history stuff sounded good, and that’s when she informed me that another tour was starting up right then. I hadn’t realized it was a guided thing. I wasn’t 100% against it at first, but by the end, I was rather disappointed. Not disappointed because it was a guided thing, per se, but because I got so little out of it. The history was kept to a minimum. What I got instead was moved from room to room, where we would watch these short, feel-good videos. It did me no good, and I quickly felt really sad that I wasn’t with my family and that I wasn’t seeing what the Children’s Peace Pavilion was like and what my kids were doing and how they were enjoying it. It didn’t help that, once again, my visit to an LDS site contained some really questionable content. On the less egregious side, the sister missionary guiding us spoke of the early Saints living in Independence by saying, “Wouldn’t it be great to live in a place where everyone is trying to keep the commandments? That's why I love BYU!” Another winning comment was when she identified the Lamanites in the Book of Mormon as the principle ancestors of the Native Americans (an outdated mode of thinking that has been officially disavowed by the LDS Church—I guess she didn’t get the memo). But the one that made me scoff the most was when she spoke about the Law of Consecration. Her words: “The Law of Consecration was a trial of faith. But they did it!” Um, no. The early Saints did not live the Law of Consecration, which required that all property be given to the Church and then meted out based on individual needs as ascertained by Church authorities. They failed to live that law, which is precisely why they later introduced the Law of Tithing in its place—a law that required only 10% of one’s increase. I’m sure I sound like I’m nitpicking and complaining over trivial things—but are they trivial?? Is the proper response to just shrug and not care that the information is so woefully inaccurate at these places that are pretending to give you historically accurate data? I see it as a problem because it is stuff like this that perpetuates a mindset that cannot handle more complex and unpolished, but more truthful, accounts of church history. Mindsets like this are what led LDS historians in the past to be excommunicated for writing about things that didn’t fit the Disneyized version of church history favored by the institutional church. This isn’t some conspiracy theory I’m waving around here. It’s just the way it’s gone, and it’s stuff like this that eventually made me feel very unwelcome in my own religion. I didn’t want to go to church to listen to fairytales and make crap up. But the alternative of informed and thoughtful discussion just wasn’t welcomed. It truly wasn’t. Yes, I still feel sad about that—sad for me, but also for the potential that is lost. Mormonism is beautiful, and church history is fascinating. I wish the LDS Church would embrace both, without so many filters and so much whitewashing. It’s a real shame.

The Christus at the Independence LDS visitor's center.  A very similar Christus is at the SLC visitor's center, but this one has a softer, more smiley face.  I found that interesting and couldn't help thinking of Elder Holland's recent general conference talk in which he chided those who picture the Lord as someone who would "pat us on the head, make us giggle, then tell us to run along and pick marigolds."  It seems they consciously decided to make Jesus appear a bit more like such a being with this statue.


Walking out of the LDS visitor’s center, you get an awesome view of the Community of Christ temple. It felt invigorating to see it—a sight for sore eyes, I said to myself as I headed to my car. I went and picked up Melanie and the kids, and we then drove around snapping a few photos of other nearby churches that are part of the Joseph Smith Restoration movement. It was then getting rather late in the day, and we decided we better start heading back to Nauvoo. We didn’t have time to visit any of the Harry Truman sites that were of secondary priority to us. That’s okay. I really do hope to be back to Independence sometime in the not-too-distant future. As it turns out, it was good we left Independence when we did. It was midnight before we got home. I didn’t much enjoy driving winding highways in the dark. Until last week, I’d never hit an animal with my car. I’ve now hit two. Last Monday, on the way home from a baseball game in Burlington, Iowa (about 30 minutes away), something that looked somewhat large came wobbling out on the highway and immediately got run over by us. I screamed, but was extremely relieved when our car passed over it with ease. It wasn’t much of a bump at all, and I was very grateful for that. I assume it was a raccoon, as those are fairly common out here and I don’t know what else it would have been. Then, on our way back from Independence, a frog came hopping out into the road as I barreled down the highway. It was promptly flattened. I wasn’t happy about it, of course, but fortunately I didn’t scream this time.

The Community of Christ temple as seen from the parking lot of the LDS visitor's center.

The Church of Jesus Christ (Zion's Branch) is one of several groups to break off from the RLDS Church in response to the RLDS Church's 1984 decision to allow women's ordination to the priesthood.

The Remnant Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is yet another church to spring from RLDS Church members who were dissatisfied with the decision to ordain women.  This building used to be a high school and is where one of my fellow tour guides went to high school in the 1960s.


And that’s my trip to Independence. The end.